Life As You Get It!!!

From the moment we are born we start learning. The very first thing we learn is to live in the world full of noise and light a startling contrast from the cozy warm womb. The food pipe is cutoff and we learn that there is no other way rather than swallowing the food to quench the hunger. And everyone around us try and teach us something. It starts with 'Say Ma, ma, Say Ma, Maa' then 'Shake hand, the RIGHT hand' then 'Say hello to Aunty'. It keeps continuing. Preschool is the first one to take us away from our loved ones and even if we cry our heart out or cling our mom and dad or plead them there is no way we can win. We learn to adjust to the situation. We learn to have fun with others like us who have fought a war and lost and have been imprisoned in the nice looking place with big flowers and lots of toys. We come back home overjoyed to be reunited to our family just to repeat the same saga again and again and again. Somehow we learn and understand that this is how it all works. So we learn follow the routine of the preschool, school, college, office and life. We never understand when we start drifting apart from our family, friends, relatives. But slowly and steadily, like a unsuspecting cancer creeping in our body, we go so far that it's impossible to go back. We realise it only after its too late. Only after its all over. When even chemotherapy is of no use. No matter how much ever we blame the situation, job, time, it all boils up to "YOU". You are the reason for where you are, alone or maybe not. But surely away from someone. Someone special. Why? This was never thought to us but we learnt it ourself. We learnt to give priorities to those things, those which distracted us, lured us, which might have given us a satisfaction initially, may be given us financial independence. But are these reasons enough to keep us away from our loved once? I don't think so. I guess we just have to learn to start loving our loved ones again or maybe learn to fall in love again with the love of our life. Just learn.

An Unborn Child

I was born by two, half cells.
She went to the temple and rang the bell
Thanked Him for the new life, in her
Then continued her chores, cutting onions for supper

Inside her womb nice warm and cozy
I continued to grow quite redder a little rosy
Oblivious of her and my own presence
Oblivious of the future mischance

She visited the doctor, to keep me healthy inside
She ate healthy food, as within her I reside
She loved me before my birth
She felt me by touching her girth

A day came the doctor announced
“It’s a Pretty Girl” her heart happily jounced
I was happy to make her happy
Thought I, dad will be snappy

But alas the joy passed me by,
“We don’t need a girl, please let her die”
My dad spoke as I lark
He stopped the journey, before I could embark

She wept silently that night
She tried but lost the fight
Curled up alone in the bed
“Sorry my child” at last she said

Empty stomach, hollow inside
Went to the doctor, prepared for feticide
She kept crying waiting alone
Cursed herself for the seed she had sown

I love you and I know you love me too
Let me die, if I am a burden on you
Even if I am born, they’ll cut my wings
They’ll cage me with chores; they’ll not let me sing

The doctor gave her a medicine or two
Having them, her sadness grew.
She went to the temple, and prayed for me
For her girl, who she’ll never see....



If only we had taken care in the past, we could have boasted of the likes of Rani laxmi bai, Lata Mangeshkar, Saina Nehwal, Indira Gandhi, Prathiba Patil, Sushmita Sen and many more….

It’s still not that late.

Break ke Baad....

Everyday I think of you,

Everyday you cross my mind...

Everyday I wanna know,

you missed me and you whined...


Everyday I Wishfully hope...

Everyday you were with me,

Everyday and so very close...

Lost in us, we'd be...


Everyday just passes by,

Everday just draining me...

Everyday without you...

I am lost like a drop, in the sea...


Everyday the intensity dims,

Everyday the emotions die...

Everyday you fade away...

In the cold chilling night alone I lie...


Everyday a new day comes...

Everyday the time goes on...

Everyday this continues...

Now to someone else, I belong...


Everyday I love her more...

Everyday She's in my mind...

Everyday is beautiful now...

Long back somewhere I've left you behind...

Parat Fed...

People change so should we....
A little selfish we should be...


Enough of caring and being good...
I have tried hard, done all I could...


But in return I got nothing to please...
just bitter words and heart breaking tease...


The people you like are the once who hurt...
They become so harsh, they become so curt...


I wish I could have loved you more...
you spoiled it all, my heart you tore...


The heart still argues, it has no brain...
Enough of Crying, Enough of Pain....


Now the time has come to leave them alone...
Let them realize, let them also moan...

And when it clicks on their head...
With someone else I'll be in bed....:-)

How Dumb was I???

How dumb was I? I fell for you.
I not only believed but loved you too.

You lied to me at every stage,
Now, I am filled with regret and rage.

We’ll be together, you promised me.
One day, happily married we’ll be.

Waiting for the day patiently,
I continuously loved you, intently.

Then you came, and let me know,
You have a spouse, you give me a blow.

My life was shattered that very second,
Broken in pieces, my heart will never mend.

It’s all wrong, I know it well.
But, I love him, I want to yell.

With him I feel everything’s right.
How can I forget, those comforted nights?


My mind says no, my heart disagrees.
They fight between them, like enemies.

There’s nothing for me left to do,
Should I die now, or wait for a day or two?

Nothing will change I know it well,
Let me hang myself, like a bell.

It’s all bleak wherever I see.
I don’t know this world, I don’t know me.

I lost my heart, I lost it all.
You are away, having a ball.

Enough, I say to myself, now.
I want to be alright, I don’t know how?

For how long will I cry, over the rotten past?
The day will rise, this night won’t last.

It will take some time, I very well know.
Enough of crying, enough of feeling low.


I see my future all nice and bright.
No place for you, you are nowhere in sight.

“This though shall pass” I know, it will.
There’s no easy way, there’s no pill.

Slowly I’ll climb the success way,
All your memories I’ll keep at bay.

It might be tough, impossible it’s not.
For you I won’t cry, for you I will not rot.

I promise myself, I’ll live happily.
I face this world, bravely.

This is how I’ll be content.
Forgetting all the past resent.

Let us be Gods...

Let there be no lights, let the dark spread its spell…
Let there be no sound, let death ring its knell…

Let the flowers droop, without a drop of rain,
Let there be bloodshed, let there be pain…

Let us all unite, and destroy this whole world now….
Let us destroy the Gods, let us destroy them somehow….

Let us be the last soul to walk upon this earth,
Let the life end with us and let there be no birth...

And once we are gone, Life will slowly embark,
In the form of creepers and in the form of barks...

The water will wash away the single celled to its shore...
In once and twos they will grow, multiply to corer...

Like this will spread the army of greens, healing the earth on its way,
The water so clean, the air so crisp, birds singing at the bay...

The morning starts with the lazy sun, shining around at seven,
The thrilling view, the chilling air, this is what is heaven....

Googling...

Whereever I go, alone I be...

Searching for the one, who made me???


No Clue, no source; of the parameter in search...

Have not found him in temple nor in church...


Wandering around, around the world...

Sailing the sea - waves swirled...


Not knowing the future untold...

Moving still, weary but bold...


Foolishly Optimistic, My heart knows it will find...

Dont be foolish, says my Mind...


Looking ahead, I make the journey....

Consuming life's misery and having it's honey....


When I came to the end, I found him within...

All time in me, All the time there-in....